I loooooove You.

I'll be the first to admit that sometimes I have doubts about the whole Jesus thing. They're short-lived and not very serious, but I have doubts just like every other person on this planet. But the amazing thing is, no matter where I am in my life or what God is doing (or how much I feel like he is missing), he always reminds me. Usually, in the same splendid way. I've always had this faith that coincidences aren't coincidences. Call it "everything happens for a reason" if you wish, but I truly believe God gave me this unshakeable faith in his perfect plan for a reason. It really does pull me out of the darkness and into light when I get into that mindset.

It's crazy for me to think about how perfect everything in life just meshes together. I just love the way God works. He pushes you into relationships at just the right time. It just leaves me in awe sometimes. The friends He's blessed me with are just so phenomenally beyond anyone I could have ever picked out. Just, incredible.

I really feel like I'm on the brink of something. I'm not sure what it is, but it's just how I feel. All of this busyness in my life is going to pay off hugely this semester, and all of these friends I've made and am making are going to benefit me greatly. I'm just really looking forward to continuing on in my relationships and learning about people and how they live and act and everything. And learning about Jesus. It's amazing how much I'm learning about Him right now.

Like, right now, I'm learning to rely on Him. My best friend is over in Spain for a month, and it might not seem very long to most people, but when the person you call for EVERYTHING is over across big huge seas getting lost in streets and scared out of her mind sometimes, you start to get a little antsy. It's strange, rethinking my decisions. All of the times where I'm normally walking to my car and I used to call her, I don't anymore. When I watch a TV show or run into a cute boy or just think of something random... I can't call her. And I know she's having a great time in Spain, and she's learning so much, and I'm just so thrilled for her to be able to do this, but I miss her greatly. And I know God is teaching both of us to rely on Him more... and to rely on more of the people He's given me.

I heard a really comforting thought on the radio today. "Don't worry; these are not the best years of your life." It really struck me because I have always been seriously scared that these ARE the best years of my life, and I'm just wasting them. But I don't feel like I'm wasting them, and if I am, I wouldn't even know how to begin to not waste them. I love where I am right now. I get my introverted time; i get my time with friends... I get to study, love, play outside in the grass.... watch babies. I just get to do so many amazing things. And to think it could all be better. Well! I'm happy to hear it. :)

I just plain love my friends. They're so weird and funny and amazing. Ahh, life is good.