Ch.Ch.Ch.Changes...

"Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is ... everything." -Meredith Grey

Lately, my life has been centered around that six letter word. Change. Everything is changing; nothing stays the same. I think it's more true in college than anywhere else. Maybe I'm wrong about that, but it seems like everyone is always changing in college. Nobody ever seems to stay stagnant. Semesters close and classes change; jobs change; relationships change. Everything is always moving, which is, at some times, discomforting, and yet at other times, it is the most comforting thing in the world.

I am currently sending out resumes and applying for jobs. I have two strong leads, and a few other leads that don't seem to be going anywhere. I'm picking my classes for next semester. I'm looking at joining the Christian sorority on campus. I'm looking to be more involved with the ASA (Anglican Student Association) and St. Peters in general, and I'm letting go of kids I love and hoping to take in new kids to love. Everything around me is changing constantly, but that doesn't even pale to how I'm changing inside. And the funny thing is, it seems so natural and peaceful that I almost want to just laugh at how amazing it feels.

I really feel God pushing and pulling me this semester. Pushing me where he wants me to be and pulling me from where I am that's not healthy. I feel him telling me to let my guard down, to let go of everything that I've kept hidden and to truly enjoy life. For the first time, I think I'm really doing that. Enjoying my life. Every day I wake up excited to greet the fun and obstacles that I do. I really just love the place where I'm at now.

A friend of mine found out she's pregnant today. If that's not a change, I don't know what is. They have a 6 month old baby already, haven't been married a year, but they're already expecting number two. Talk about ch-ch-ch-changes.